insomnia

i haven’t been sleeping well lately. i am anxious. i fall in and out of lucid moments of comprehension. nothing makes sense; people in general don’t make sense to me. people are broken, bouncing off of contradictions until they find one they like best. they are so wrapped up in how broken they are they can’t see the beauty in their imperfections. i pass. their drama is no longer my drama. iwish for peace. i crash. as i fall asleep i feel like i am going to sleep for days and end up waking up two hours later, thinking. i fight. i battle myself. i try to juggle “work”: school work, housework, family work, work work. i fail. i am not very successful at the moment. i let go. there is only so much i can do in a day, some of it must fall. i worry. the cycle starts over. i know this is temporary but it’s draining nonetheless. i'm awake.